Getting Better...I hope!

I am starting to feel better every day. I am loving feeling "normal" and being able to do more. I have not had bleeding in a little over a week, so I am hoping I can go back to work even if it's only part-time.

Last weekend we went to a guy from my work's wedding. It was pretty good, our daughter had a blast running around and dancing at the dance, but her attitude the rest of the weekend stunk! She wants to be so independant, but can't quite yet because she's so young and still needs help with some things.

The baby is moving around like crazy lately, punching and kick my bladder and intestines seems to be his/her favorite thing to do! When I lay down in bed, I can now feel the baby's little back and bum and almost always know exactly where the little peanut is. It's such an amazing thing to feel and I'm cherishing it because I know that this will be our last little one.

I found out some unfortunate news on Wednesday from a girl at my work, the lady that trained me at my job when I started last August committed suicide. After she left my position she was offered a new position with the company and took it. A few months later she got let go, but was with the company for a few more months and left just a couple of months ago. That paired with the fact that her boyfriend and her just broke up must have caused her to be depressed. For the last while she was always crying at work. I don't think I will be able to go to her funeral because our van will be in the shop, plus I don't do well at funerals. I'm not sure why but I have issues with death. I know I will die someday and that doesn't bother me, but when other people do it bothers me. If it's family or to support family I have no problem going, but I don't deal well with funerals and I don't think stress is the best thing for me and baby right now.

This weekend Matt and I are going out for dinner for his birthday. His sister is going to babysit Ceili so we can have an adult night which will be nice. I miss having regular dates! We are also hoping to get away in the winter to the mountains for some us time before baby comes. It's just nice to have some bonding time before the chaos ensues!

In other good news, we almost have the baby's room cleaned out now. We have been working on cleaning up our basement and the baby's room for the past few weeks because it has been bugging me. We still have to finish the baseboards in our stairwell and bedroom and then we'll be much closer to done! I don't know why but I'm starting to stress about all of this, but I know we have around 4 months left so I need to calm down, lol.

18 Weeks!

I just noticed that haven't written for quite a few days, so I thought I'd better write. I can't believe that tomorrow I will have made it to 18 weeks! I keep setting myself little goals, my current goal is to make it to 20 weeks..the half way mark. Then I think my next goal will be 28 weeks because then I will know that the baby can easily survive (with help) if something happened and he/she was born early.

I have been doing much better lately, no bleeding for 7 days now and I have been doing a little more walking, etc these past few days. I managed a walk to the park with my hubby and daughter the other day and it was so nice! I am hoping that my ultrasound on Friday shows that things are moving the right way. I'm anxious to get back to work and start getting baby stuff ready! I want to put the crib together in the next few months and start going through clothes, etc.

We are getting ready to go to my best friend's cabin at the lake in Saskatchewan. We leave next Sunday and are going to meet her, her boyfriend and kids out there. I'm really excited to get away and do some relaxing elsewhere! I'm hoping we have nice weather for our week there.

I have been keeping busy with my scrapbooking. I finished our famiy scrapbook and now I'm going to be starting my pregnancy scrapbook. I'm sure once I get back to work I won't have much time for scrapbooking, but I will need to make an effort so that I have a finished scrapbook for this baby too.